Complacent Blogger

Sorry – SO, so sorry for being the complacent blogger of late! i would love to say that it has been becasue i have been busier than usual but i actually don’t think that i am any busier now than what i was a few weeks ago… so really in essence i don’t particularly have any real rhyme or reason for not blogging!

BUT in saying that i am writing now… not only that BUT i am also going to make a promise that i will not be so complacent anymore! That i PROMISE to write AT least 2 blog posts per week and keep you all up to speed with the ‘goings on’ in my life and what my latest rant is all about! PLEASE feel free to KICK MY ASS if i let things fall by thw wayside… althought like i said, i do not intend to let any wayside falling occur!

So in saying that what on earth has been happening in my life?

The search is still on in relation to wedding reception venue – Mr A’s mum and i are now moving in the direction of seeing everything and then just eliminating what we both dislike and discussing pros and cons of venues – thankfully we both have similar ideas and we do (thankfully) get along and are able to communicate on most things (i am still gobsmacked at the HUGE invitation list she has complied of the people she wants to invite… but me thinks that is a blog post all unto itself!)

Speaking of mothers i am certain you’re all wondering what on earth is going on with mine? All is well, in that she his healthy and not constantly crying (thus i am calling her ‘happy’) AND she has decided to extend to her trip overseas…. this is actually a little bit odd; as every single time i talk to her and ask if she’s happy she doesn’t exactly say ‘yes’. in reality she’ll go on and on about how she misses me and about how she wishes i was there and that she cries thinking about me (she has cried to me over the phone – very gut wrenching!) BUT then she extends her ticket… who knows! As long as ther is calm in both our lives that i am happy… I don’t know how else to put it; to say that things are easier that she’s away is a terrible thing to say – but i do miss her; its strange isn’t it…. and i think i should explain what i miss: i miss the old her – the way she used to be.

Considering the fact that Mr A’s mum and i get along like a house on fire it frustrates, saddens, agrravates me to think that really there was once upon a time when MY mum and i used to get along… when we’d chat, hang out, i used to  be albe to tell her about the boys i liked… but it’s gone… its been gone for about a good 10 years now and i have no ida what happened – where it went from who i am and what type i was growing up to be into being told and suddenly being a disapointment… i don’t know – sometimes i want to ask her how we got this way; how we went from a really close mother/daugther team – us against the world to this; a mother and daughter who dance around each other and don’t even talk about anything ‘real’ anymore. I have no idea… i don’t know what’s sadder – the fact that we have come tp this point or the fact that i cannot be bothered with it anymore? That as long as i do my duty to care and provide for my mum and demonstrate respect that my ‘bits’ are done. ugh – i don’t know…

Anyway; now that i have brought you all down i will bid you adieu - OBVIOUSLY this is ONLY going to be over the next few days…. I fully intend to keep my promise to you all…

COMPLACENT NO MORE…

ME!

~ by daysofarabianlives on November 4, 2009.